End of June

It's the end of June..

Wondering what would happen after today..

Would it get better or just worse..

Hopefully not...

Love

Being born in a rich and high status family,I was taken care like a diamond.I have no worries about anything because my parents will provide me everything I want because they are businessman.They ran a company which started by my grandparents.They work very hard to get as much money as they could.

I still remember when I was in the younger age,my parents always busy with their work.They go to work early in the morning and come back late at night.I had no chance to talk to them except my nanny who always spent more time playing with me and my driver who always send and fetch me after school.Even during the weekends and public holidays,when I want to go somewhere that we all can spend time together,they said they were too busy and just ignored me.

As the time passed through the years,it's time for me to learn new things and get more experience such as playing football or riding bicycle like the other kids do.But,it was a no from my parents because it is too dangerous for me and they scared that I might get hurt.So instead of playing outdoors,they sent me to learn piano and art class.Although I enjoyed that so much,I still wondering why I can't at least try to do things that I want like other kids do.

Not just that,my parents always care about my academic achievement.They always pushed me to study rather than playing computer games like other people.Moreover,they would scold me if I obtain poor results.Furthermore,they do not like me to go outside and play with the neighbour's children because they do not want be to get negative influenced by them.

As I grew older,I feel lonely.I longed for my parents love.Then,one day,I gathered all my courage and tell them what I felt.I hope that they would stay at home with me more often rather than spending their time on work.But all that I said just a waste,they didn't even pay attention to me.So,my childhood memories are just like that.Just a waste.I feel lonely and wondering does my parents love me?There's no love inside of me,just emptiness.I feel like a bird in a cage.No freedom at all.I have to follows every plans,instructions or orders from my parents no matter how tough it is for me.

When I was in the middle school,I started to feel that I worth nothing to my parents.I am just a tool for them to reach their dreams.I am useless and invisible in their eyes.Where's the love that I need?Where's my guardian angel?Since then,I started to have bad attitudes and hatred in my heart.I always hang out with the bad students in the school.They teach me a lot of things that I have never learned before.When I am in trouble or have problems,they are the ones who always stand by me and treated me like brothers.

From that day onwards,I started to act like them.I learnt how to smoke.I do not scared of anything.I bully the students that are weaker than me.Moreover,I didn't do my homework and fight with the teachers.The teachers and my friends were disappointed with me.I was one of the top student in class.But,I did not care how they feel towards me.I just know I didn't feel lonely anymore.I had been set free.

One night,my gang asked me out for a party.Although I knew I was not supposed to be out of the house after nine,but i made a lot of excuses to convince my nanny to let me out.So,she said yes.They brought me to a club,where I saw many people dancing,drunk and more.It was a lifetime experience for me.Then,we started to have fun on the dance floor and after that they introduced me to alcohol.So I try it a lot and I got drunk.Next,they tell me to try drugs.Although I was drunk but still I am awake.Then,I told them that I don't want to try drugs because I made a commitment to someone.But,they didn't care.They forced me in committing suicide.Then,I fight with them and they punched and kicked me till I fainted.

After few weeks,I heard someone calling my name.I started to opened my eyes and saw my parents were beside me.They were the ones who were taking care of me the whole time.My parents told me that I was seriously injured.I broke my legs.I couldn't walk properly because of that.I was devastated to know that I had disappointed them.My parents hugged me tightly.For the first time,I finally realised that my parents actually loved me so much although they did not show their love.

To my parents:
I am sorry for misjudging you guys.You guys had sacrificed a lot for me.You're were the ones who always by my side.I am happy that the love that you give me is bigger than anything in the world.Thank you for always remembering an loving me.The love that you give me will always be inside my heart and bigger than us.

Just story...

另一個自己(Breaking Free)胡彥斌

Camp Rock

I want to watch this movie..It tells the rock n' roll Cinderella story of Mitchie Torres, a teen with an amazing voice and a driving ambition to be a pop singer who wants to spend her summer at a prestigious rock camp. Unfortunately, an expensive music camp is a bit out of reach for her family, but her mother gets a job as Camp Rock's cook so that Mitchie can attend as long as she helps out in the kitchen between classes. Befriended by fellow camp member Caitlyn but intimidated by the immensely talented Tess Tyler and her friends Peggy and Ella, Mitchie lives a double life hiding that she is the cook's daughter and posing as a well-to-do camper in order to become part of the hottest clique at camp. When she's overheard singing, but not seen, by teen pop star and celebrity camp instructor, plus lead singer of Connect Three, Shane Gray, he is completely taken and sets out to find the girl behind the beautiful voice. Meanwhile, Mitchie will have to learn how to confront her fears, step out of the kitchen and into the spotlight as herself.

A new start?

From today onwards,probation prefects will start their duties for one month.A new start for me?Maybe yes,maybe not..hope i will changed to be a better person after this.
Man..i woke up so early today around 4:30am.By right i should woke up at 6am today,dunno why get up so early..Then,go to school at 6:15am reach there by 6:23am.Go into the class and actually want to go duty already but i can't think straight and was so nervous so i talk to my friends for a while.I come to 1I class at 6:32am..I am late.

My senior,Daniel Hon is already there.1st impression,not so good.Late.When roll call,i followed the prefects that i worked with that is TCO and Sheila bcoz i dunno where's their line up.Then,my senior tell me to take their attendance,check the nails,their hair,their ties and name tags,and their school planner.

2nd impression,not good again..i left my planner at 1I class..why am I so forgetful!After roll call,we all gathered at the school hall an we're given speech or talk my the teachers la..
After school at 2:30pm,Me and some of my friends go to Mr.Anthony to do our work about the DAC thing.bla..bla..bla..Just hope i won't messed up things tomorrow and make the same mistake again.

Probation starts tomorrow!

Tomorrow the probation prefects going to start..
I dunno what's my feelings right now..
Excited yet nervous..
Today all who apply for prefects assemble at the hall..
One by one the names are called..
And they sit in their own department and beside their seniors..
I know they will not call my name cause i just send the letter today..
After most of the names are called..
Left some of us..
Our letters are either lost or just hand in today..
So they have to write the letter and pass up tomorrow..
Only 3 of us are lucky one to pass..
Then,Yang Tze ask me which department that I want to go..
I was like huh?Can choose one?
But,I just say dunno..
I dunno the names of the department..
So she send me to the welfare department..
My senior is Daniel Hon..if I'm not mistaken..
From U6A/B...not sure..
Then I go sit beside him like a new student in the orientation..
hahaha..then jing hung and teck you want me to be their junior..
hehe..cannot la..not fair to the others...
I'm dunno my senior before..
Hope he's not fierce..
Otherwise I'll be dead...
And then I need to prepare notebook,nail cutter,pen and remember to bring the sash..
Have to wake up early and go duty by 6:30am..
That's the time I go from home le..
Don't wanna be late..
Otherwise die again..
Then have to write 2 names and do reports everyday...
Haiz..
So nervous right now..
Hope I can sleep tonight...
Jiayous everyone!

Happy Feet

Yesterday was my sister's birthday..sorry if i have no mood to celebrate it..cuz i am terribly sick yesterday..but today feeling much better.Then,there is students i think, from U.K. come to our school..and some of us like hey!Zac Efron coming,Vanessa Hudgens,Chris Brown,Rihanna....coming!!lol...=.="At English period,the teacher tell us to go to APD room..duno 4 what actually..but teacher let us to see HAPPY FEET!!Although I've seen it before,but still i enjoyed watching it again..This is the story is about a little penguin named Mumble who has a terrible singing voice and later discovers he has no Heartsong. However, Mumble has an astute talent for something that none of the penguins had ever seen before: tap dancing. Though Mumble's mom, Norma Jean, thinks this little habit is cute, his dad, Memphis, says it "just ain't penguin." Besides, they both know that, without a Heartsong, Mumble may never find true love. As fate would have it, his one friend, Gloria, happens to be the best singer around. Mumble and Gloria have a connection from the moment they hatch, but she struggles with his strange "hippity- hoppity" ways. Mumble is just too different--especially for Noah the Elder, the stern leader of Emperor Land, who ultimately casts him out of the community. Away from home for the first time, Mumble meets a posse of decidedly un-Emperor-like penguins--the Adelie Amigos. Led by Ramon, the Adelies instantly embrace Mumble's cool dance moves and invite him to party with them. In Adelie Land, Mumble seeks the counsel of Lovelace the Guru, a crazy-feathered Rockhopper penguin who will answer any of life's questions for the price of a pebble. Together with Lovelace and the Amigos, Mumble sets out across vast landscapes and, after some epic encounters, proves that by being true to yourself, you can make all the difference in the world.I wish next time can watch Kung Fu Panda,cuz I haven't watch it...sob....

Sick

Today wake up so late around 12pm..I slept at 2am..haiz..tired..and that bring me to sickness...I am so sick..can't go to help in the FIAT Youth food festival early this morning till evening..I also can't even attend the rehersal at Megahotel for the principal dinner this tuesday..I am so sorry guys if I disappointed you guy..why I have to be sick today?It's such an important and special day..why should I be sick!!!Ok..nvm..maybe God have something planned for me..hope tomorrow I can be strong enough to go to school..I can't miss my study again..I missed a lot already..May God bless me..give me strength and heal my sickness..

FIAT Youth Mini Concert

Yeah..concert gonna start!!!I reach at St.Joseph Cathedral at around 5:30pm like that..actually we need to be present there at 5pm..late because of my uncle shift and i forget to bring my ticket so need to go back again and take it..=.="Then,the waiters and wardens are given short briefing on stuff we should do..after that some of us help carrying stuff,set up the tables an chairs...after i carry all those stuff,i go help with the reception..tat's pretty much our jobs..

At 7:30pm,the concert start with the blessing from our bishop,then prayer for God's blessing for the concert tonight..Then the concert starts!!Starring with all the musician,singers and choir join together in this song called Receive the Power..it is the World's Youth Day theme song..i love it!

After that,it's time for each group to perform..got the chinese youth,CYC,FIAT Youth...They performed really well and have done a great job.We all enjoyed it..There were more than 300 people come..i think..cuz whole st.joseph cathedral are full with people and Christian are all unite today!I worked as the food seller,warden and waiter..kind of busy..but still enjoyed the foods,drinks and the performance..hope they will continue this tradition to make this concert..!
To all the musician,singers,choir,waiter,wardens,kitchen ministry,all the committee members,crew and who have supported us...THANK YOU!!!

FIAT Youth Mini Concert preparation

Today i have a very very delicious lunch made by aunt,so full!At noon,I go to church to help out with the preparation for the...

FIAT YOUTH MIRI CONCERT... Date:21 June 2008,Saturday Time:7:00pm-10:00pm Venue:St.Joseph Cathedral compound

So,i take this opportunity to do kerja amal for Moral project that have to pass up on Monday.I haven't do anything yet..i am clueless..duno what to do and how to do the moral...somebody help me!!When doing the kerja amal,we need to take pictures as a proof that we have do the kerja amal.Hahaha..you know what do we do?We not actually do the kerja amal..well just some of them..and the others just posing that we that stuff and have to smile again..haiz..so malu ah..so stupid..After that I go help to do some of the stuff for the concert.Hope the concert will be perfect and happening today cuz it's our 1st time and statistic show that around 600 were sold..so hope everyone will come and support us!I am going to be stage warden and waiter at the concert so hope I'll do a good job cuz it's my 1st time actually..May God Bless Us!

Here are the videos from Fiat's Mini Concert-A Youth's Nite:The Youth Band,Miri..
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=22961718853&oid=25710670335

COME AND EXPERIENCE GOD'S LOVE!!!

If my mom is a housewife

"What if my mom is a housewife?"
Why do I ask this question?just curiosity i guess..
because yesterday when i came back from school,for the first time in my entire life when i came back from school in the evening,foods were served at the dining table..The foods were prepared by my aunt who is a housewife..THANK YOU!!
Imagine if my mom is a housewife:-
- She can spend more quality time with us..
- Take us anywhere,anytime..
- Help us in our studies..
- Make a delicious meal everyday..
- Teach us more about Life..
and so on...
hmm..i guess it will never happens..my mom loves her job..travel here and there,meet new people and new country..Why should I spoil it?hahaha...

Bible Knowledge class

I attend bible class today..
It's my first time..
Lots of my friends take it..
and my parents also ask me to take it so i just go for it..
Bible knowledge..
Not so hard..
Quite easy..
Just need to read and remember the stories..
Plus,can be Soldier of Christ!

Home feels different

Mum is leaving us early morning..
Dad already left..
Uncle's family take care of us..
Home feels different..
Although we're used to it..
But something just not right..
Something missing..
Just hope you guys will come back soon..

I miss you

I miss you,
I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear,
Every once in a while,
And even though we're different now,
You still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you,
.I miss you.

Long forgotten

This land we walk and live on has been there for ages.Sometimes I stand still and think of all the people that have stood exactly the same spot before me.Normal people,just like you and me.Their lives,their worries,their dreams are long forgotten.And so will be ours...

CH Choir in Sibu

On early Tuesday, we gathered at the school foyer and wait for the bus to come..except for me..I was the last one to arrived and all the choir members are on the bus including the teachers..oops..sorry sorry..lucky didn't have hukuman..then we start our journey..in the middle of the road to bintulu..Car Crash!! Not really car crash la..just accident only..our bus slammed into the rear of a van..After that,our bus driver stopped the bus and go negotiate with the van driver at the side of the road..actually it is not our bus driver's fault,cuz the bus driver parked the car at the left lane of road not at the side..then we are stuck there like about an hour..and soon the police and the reporters came..they took the pic of our bus and some of us like doing some pose in the bus and said we're going to be popular!!!hahaha..but then we have to go to the police station..haiz..we would reach sibu by now...duh..At 4 sth..finally we reach sibu..but what's funny is tat our bus driver didn't know the way to the Paramount Hotel where we're staying.Then,we get help from someone..and we reach the hotel..At the lobby,i saw 2 other school stay there too..Then we go to our respective rooms..mine is 903..or is called the make up room..which I also don't know why..After having our dinner,we have our practice..thenZZZZZ...

end of 1st day at sibu...

Rise and shine steve!!!My room mates woke me up..and it is still early like 4 sth i guess..then i go sleep again for half an hour..some of them go take a shower,some got prepare stuff or doing sth..i don't know..then after prepare ourselves..me and Tommy and Bernard go to the park near our hotel to exercise a bit..then after having our breakfast,our choir go to see the primary school choir competition..of course we support our Miri team la..They are so cute and their action when they singing makes them even cute!The competition of the primary and secondary school are at SMK Methodist school hall..omg..i am going back to my old school..happy!!After the primary school competition,we have our rehearsal after that..we go up stage and practice and to get used to the stage..then we saw the Sibu team choir in action..we all we're amazed like wow!!They sound so good and so confidence that their going to get champion again this year..yea..maybe so..hahaha..i saw my friends there..so happy..they said I have changed so much..they barely can recognise me..then have a hug..then they go back to class..then we go back to hotel and practice again and then go to rest..At night,we do the last practice and we all like not in a mood to sing because we already sing whole day..so we went bed early...

End of 2nd day..

Competition is today!!!Roll call at 6am..Woke up early at 5am and prepare in our costume..we have our practice 1st be4 breakfast..we all was flat when singing the songs..maybe it's cuz of our engine belum panas yet..after breakfast..have our practice and then go to the competition..with full hope,we all tried our best and give our all on stage..don't care what will happened..just wana sing it..Then the result are out..

Primary category:
1st: SJK Chung Hua,Miri
2nd:SJK Chung Sing,Sibu
3rd:Sk St.Mary,Kuching

Secondary category:
1st: SMK Methodist,Sibu
2nd:SMK Green Road,Kuching
3rd:SMK Chung Hua Miri

Best conductor awards:
Primary category:Christine Siew(SJK Chung Sing,Sibu)
Secondary category:Grace Jong(SMK Chung Hua Miri)

Hahahaha..we never thought we can get third again like last year..cuz all the school are improving including ours..Also today is Cikgu Azmira's birthday..so we sing happy birthday to her with the kuching team..Then it's picture time..we took a lot of picture..after that we bring our trophy and leave the place..Congratulations to all the choirs an our choir!!Hope next year will be better and i hope that the school would find a professional teacher for our choir team to increase our levels and skills..After that,we go back to hotel and rest..in the evening,we go to Parkson or Wisma Sanyan to shopping..at night we go to pasar malam,jun rong supermarket and premier shopping centre..what a tiring day!!Then at hotel,at our rooms..some of us started to party!!!Let the party started!!We ate a lot of food,tell jokes,make fake phone calls,playing cards till 2:30am..hahahha..

end of 3rd day...

Finally last day for us in sibu..after packing our stuff and having our breakfast,we go back home..anyway congrats again to choir!love you guys so much!Jiayous!

Bye-bye Holidays..

Wow..haven't post anything for a long time already..sorry blog!

Bye bye to holidays and hello to school...!

Time flies really fast...holidays just past..school starts..haiz..wish that can holiday a bit longer like 1 month..i didn't really enjoy this holidays..cuz i didn't get to do the things that i like..and plus..everyday what i do just eat,watch tv,staring at this computer,sleep,bath...tat's all...so bored...

Today early in the morning, for the first time my parents together send me and my bro & sis to school..cuz normally my father send me and my sis..and my mum send my bro...I hope everyday can like tat..but it will not happened la..coz 2day dad going to study again for 2 months..haiz..miss him...

Anyway..i didn't go class to study 2day...choir competition is this week...so this few days we're going to train and train harder..we going to sibu tomorrow at 6:30am by bus..(what?so early!i havent reach school yet!)..the competition will be held at SMK Methodist Sibu..Happy!!I am going back to my old school...do you guys still remember me?maybe not...The brassband also going to Kuching for competition...hope they do their best and can get CHAMPION again this year..and same as to choir..wish that our dreams will come true!!!KL......

K..got to go now...4 church choir for wedding...will update "you" this friday...wish us luck!!!