Apple tree

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top

of the tree.

Breaking?

Recently many things happened which bothers my feelings and my mood a lot. Did you see it coming? Did you ever have such thoughts of it? Did you even imagine it to happen? If you can then you'll know. That distasteful feeling I felt. Remember your first day of school when your parents sent & left you at the kindergarten, where the place and people are a total stranger to you. You're alone. So do everyone else. But after few minutes, you already made a lot of new friends and playing hide and seek with them. This is because you don't hide the true you in front of them.

Remember the friends you had in primary and secondary school. Or even college friends. How many are them do you still keep in touch with or that they even talked to you? Yes, that's the distasteful feeling I'm talking about. I hated it. Imagine this we are best friends and claimed ourselves as brothers or sisters now, but what about the future, can our relationship hold? Even as brothers for life? I doubt it now. Don't get me wrong about brotherhood or sisterhood but it's true. How many will lend you a hand when you face bigger problems? How many will stay when you have sickness? Or how many will stick around when they found out you did something wrong?

I know I have cause the pain to my friend lately. On behalf of the others, I apologized to you for our wrong doing. We may have get carried away, playing too much and overdo it. But we didn't mean to do it. We didn't know that you'll get mad and serious till you did such actions. It made me regret and disappointed. Do you know that? I guess not. I guess you don't even give a fuck anymore. But still, I want to say this. Compare to the others, you're the closes thing to me among the others. Although sometime I do wonder how much we're changing, but I'm feeling that we're still the same old person that we've known. I thought this thing might shaken our friendship only but I never thought of it going to end up such way.

I want this friendship and brotherhood of ours to last long till the dreams of ours able to attend each others wedding ceremony and have reunion dinner when we're like 50's, 60's or 70's and able to reminisce what we're doing now. I really hope that we can overcome any obstacles that life throws at us that challenges our friendship and hey, brothers fight too. Just hope that you'll back with us after you cool down. I promise you I won't do things that might hurt you. And I'll let you guys bully me. I don't mind. I just hope it to be back like last time. Don't emo too long ok? We're really sorry brother..hope you forgive us..

I seen a man

I seen a man,

I seen a man with the crack of lightning in his feet.

I seen a man who feels the soul through his soles,
But his mind is not laced tightly.
His spirit is twisted, ankled to the will of the surroundings.

I seen a man and he has gift,
But beware, his heart may be callous and his will heels at nothing.

I seen a man with illusionary razor blades cutting further into his attention span.
Unaware of the passing years he has yet to catch up to.

Now he marches in mediocrity with the capacity to be great.
Only his dreams separate him now.
Thoughts that filled the air appear within and confuse him of his insight.

I seen a man in a room where the fourth wall clouds his thoughts from his everyday persistence,
And required words trying to find one another explore every part of his existence.

The existential, experiential, surrealistic, unbound potential wakes him up at night
subconsciously aware of the thoughts that fill the air.

As death falls upon deaf ears, the puddle of life returning,
Blind eyes become the seer of life beyond the sight of mortal fear.

I seen a man.

I seen a man.

How Are You?

How Are You
今天的你,

想念着每天的你,
你和我是否需要一点温习,
多希望腻在一起,
不管今天星期几,
想念你慢慢变成我的呼吸.

^___^

2.0.1.1.

A great year of 2010 just passed by without and sense of realization about what was or were happened. Time flies in a blink of an eye. Today is already the 4th day of Year 2011 and I haven't made any new year resolutions yet. Well, I'm going to start make a list of it later on.

Year 2010. What can I say. I'm gonna cherish u. Reminiscing all the memories, the good and fun times..the hard and tough times..the sad and moody times..You've made me who I am today. You gave me a lot of new experiences. You made me grow up. You changed me. Though it ain't perfect with those ups and downs but I definitely appreciate it.

Year 2011. I know it will be a lucky year for me that is why I'm looking forward for you.

Flashback on what I did on new years eve. I was celebrating for the first time in Miri with my friends and it was indeed a great one. We did lots of crazy stuff not to say others but myself which almost get into accident on New Year. But luckily everything's fine. :D

Year 2011 will definitely be a better one. I pray for it.

Happy New Year peeps!